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HAPPY SATURDAY! Waking up to thunder, rain, and lightning was unexpected, but welcome! It’s been a slow morning with green smoothies and toast with goat cheese and tomato slices. I’ll be relaxing at home until our Jr. High pool party this evening ūüôā What are your Saturday plans?

Whatever they are, please enjoy these summer inspired weekend links!

  1. 20 Summer Bucket List items for your family.
  2. How adorable is this summer swim suit?!
  3. Pinning & Twinning made my Minature Roasted Eggplant recipe.
  4. My new favorite author and the perfect summer reads can be foud here.
  5. The most EPIC road trip EVER!
  6. Moscow mules…in popsicle form!!!
  7. A challenge to all of us women out there from Piper.
  8. 2 fresh new looks for your home: one patriotic and one natural. Enjoy!
  9. 8 favorite summer outfits. Yes please!
  10. Whether you’re working, traveling, or picnicking…here’s how to pack healthy lunches.
  11. Even though I want every day to be a beach day, I still have to keep my house clean.
  12. My new favorite thing: Happy Hour Podcast with Jamie Ivey!
  13. Summer dinner made EASY and DELICIOUS.
  14. Need camping list items and tips? I’m your gal. Make sure to check out the whole 3 part series.

Happy Saturday & Happy Summer! Enjoy this season that the Lord has made!

xo sarah

not one single thing

Hi friends,

I posted earlier this week¬†and mentioned I was going to share about the hard season¬†I’m facing. There’s really no exciting way to say this: I have been facing anxiety.
I have friends and family that have experienced anxiety as well, so I know that this is nothing new under the sun. It’s just new for me.¬†And I hate it. It just sucks.

The anxiety arrived out of nowhere.¬†My heart pounds, my fears are raging, my thoughts are scrambled, and I feel on the verge of tears. I am just fragile and weak. It’s extremely frustrating and almost crippling. Like I said, it just sucks.stamped.jpg

And honestly, there is not one single thing causing my anxiety. I can’t point to one thing and conclude that that is the thing wearing on me. There are layers there. Many, many layers. However, I think underneath all the layers is unbelief.
Unbelief that God is in control, is good, is enough, is everything I need. My heart is not believing these truths and that is sinful.

And in the midst of this unbelief and suffering (because that’s truly what it is), I am praising God for four things:

  1. I am praising God for the grace and fogiveness found in Jesus. It’s amazing that God never leaves me no matter how unbelieving my heart is. Grace upon grace.
  2. I am praising God that I have been able to share these feelings with many close friends and family. I have truly felt their prayers and there are no words for how helpful they have been. It’s so comforting to know I’m not praying alone.
  3. I am praising God for my husband. He talks me down, reminds me of the truth, and loves me so well. He knows there are times to let me cry and times to¬†kick my butt (figuratively, of course). He listens even when I don’t know how to communicate.
  4. I am praising God for His Word. Without a doubt, I could not be getting through each day without God’s Word. This is good for me to experience because there have been SO many days that I can get through without Scripture. That is heartbreaking and not the life I want to live.

The fact is, anxiety is normal. But just because it is normal does not mean I shouldn’t battle it to the death. Anxiety/unbelief is battled by grace and grace alone. It is by God’s grace that I can¬†meditate on God’s Word and ask for the help of His Holy Spirit. By His Word, God promises to wipe away my unbelief so that I can see clearly. And the Holy Spirit sanctifies me through this.

Here are some of the Scriptures that have been so helpful for me during this time:

  • Pslam 103: 2-5
    Bless the Lord, O my soul,¬†and forget not all his benefits,¬†who forgives all your iniquity,¬†who heals all your diseases,¬†who redeems your life from the pit,¬†who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,¬†who satisfies you with good¬†so that your youth is renewed like¬†the eagle’s.
  • Pslam 34: 4-5
    I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed.
  • Hebrews 4:2
    For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.
  • Mark 9: 24
    Immediately the father of the child cried out and said, ‚ÄúI believe; help my unbelief!‚ÄĚ
  • Psalm 38: 9
    O Lord, all my longing is before you; my sighing is not hidden from you.
  • 2 Corinthian 4:16-18
    So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

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If you have ever faced anxiety, I am so sorry. I feel your pain and it is terrible. We always have good news in Jesus, promises in the Word, and prayers on our behalf. We can rest in the gospel always.

I will be praying for you as I pray for myself.

xo sarah

our full life: june

Here is what June looked like for me: restaurant tours, softball, friends, Jr. High Ministry, hubby dates, and summer fun.

Be warned…there is lots of foodie pictures this month. I am surprised I didn’t gain 100 pounds from all the yummy food.

j1Softball! A first for me, but work put together a team and I joined in. Pretty fun!

IMG_8807Blurry but besties. I love dates with this guy. ‚̧

j2 Talking about joy and soaking up the sun down at Tower 30 with the cutest Jr. Highers.

j3 Beach life. Living the dream.

j4Fine Dining in La Jolla. The view was so beauiful.

j5Fine Dining in Downtown San Diego. Eating shrimp and enjoying another gorgeous view. Yes…I love my job!

j6Bacon wrapped stuffed dates. Like whoa.

j7Mayyyybe, just maybe, the best poke I’ve ever had. Thanks Pacifica.

j8Summer time means ceviche. Salmon ceviche to be exact.

j9Special treatment with a cappucino and tiramisu. PCO, you spoil me.

j10¬†Red, orange, yellow, green, blue…

j11First time at Lemonade! I loved it. Bret ended up getting me their cookbook! Also, how cute is this guy!? He is always smiling and excited and I LOVE that.

j12For sure ice cream.

j13 I wish I could have taken them all home.

j14 Earl Grey, Strawberry Buttermilk, and Lavender & Honey.

IMG_8913Loved our sweet and fun family time in LA. ‚̧

j15 Bret is good at accessories. Please and thank you.

j16Girls night at Compass. I ate a million roasted shishito peppers.

j17 All of us have been friends for 8 years!! So much love.

j18Our parents took us out to the ballgame! VIP seats baby! ūüôā

j19Cooking Club June! Theme: French Food. Outcome: Complete & Total Sucess.

I do have to admit…June looked pretty fabulous. And it was! But don’t let me fool you. It had it’s hard moments too. Really hard, actually.
I will be writing more about that this week. I am going through a season that I know a lot of people face, but it’s new to me and hard to walk through.

We are already 6 days into July and I’m taking pictures getting reading for the next full life month. I’m sporadic, but sticking around. I am SO grateful and give many thanks to you faithful readers. Much love!

xo sarah