I have been so challenged lately by my idols. They are flaring up big time.
I despise it, but I idolize the approval of others.
I want my husband to think I’m perfect (as if!). I want my oldest friends to see me as caring and successful. I want people to approve of the career path I’m on. I want people to love my blog and appreciate my creativity. I want our finances to be “right” in the eyes of others. Basically, I want everyone to like me. A LOT.
AUGH. As you can see, it is a real struggle. While most of these things are not inherently bad, the problem is with my own heart. I have shared the honest truth with you all, and – at the same time – a bunch of shallow lies.
Lie: I do not already have all of my husband’s love and approval.
Lie: I can be perfect.
LIE: Being caring and successful means I have gained worth.
LIE: My career defines who I am.
LIE: This blog is my source of approval or measure of my creativity.
LIE: Our finances will someday be “right”, according to the world.
The hardest part of this struggle is that I actually know THE Truth. The ultimate, unchanging, never-ending, all-encompassing, incredible Truth.
The only approval I need is from God above. Based on my sin, this is impossible. With Christ, this is absolutely possible and entirely accomplished. In Christ, I have 100% of God’s approval. I have ALL of God’s love. When God sees me, He no longer sees my wickedness, but He sees Jesus’ blood that covers me. His righteousness was given to me; His “success”, His “creativity”, His “wealth”, and His “care” was transferred to my account. Jesus held nothing back when He died on the cross. He bore all my shame, all my sin, all my pride. Jesus is God. He stood in my place and He is my salvation. I do not need to long for praise from people in light of this truth, but to give all praise to Jesus and His great name.
I hope you can fully trust God’s truth as you live this life He has given you. God’s grace gives us the choice to trust Jesus and the choice to turn from our evil ways. I want to make that choice today and every day. I want what God says about me to be the only thing I believe. I want to praise His holy name forever and ever.